Miguel and I recently found out that we were expecting a child. Miguel was so excited when I told him. He could not believe it. We tried to conceive for 18 months by the time we actually did it. Week after week I would look at babycenter.com and check on the progress that our baby was making. Miguel and I would often talk about our plans, our fears, but above all our happiness. Wednesday I knew something was not right. I went to the doctor, then to get the first sonogram. The technician came and performed the sonogram, and then said she would ask the doctor to come in. The doctor came in and searched and searched and finally told me that he could not see or hear a heart beat. In fact, the fetus looked as if it was only 6 weeks. My child had expired a couple of weeks ago. It was just awful hearing what the doctor told me. I tried to be strong. That day when I went home I cried and the heavens cried with me because it rained. Miguel and I will overcome this together. We love each other, and love the little angel who failed to be with us. When we pass we know that someone will be there to welcome us to the after life. All we can do now is live one day at a time and enjoy our time together because we don't know what can happen tomorrow. The pictures above are pictures that I took of my belly before the D & C, they are the only pictures I have of my belly while pregnant. I will cherish them forever.
Miguel y yo recientemente supimos que ibamos a ser papas. Cuando le dije a Miguel estaba contento y no lo podia creer. Intentamos concevir por 18 meses antes de lograrlo. Semana tras semana me metia en el internet para ver el desarollo de nuestro bebe. Miguel y yo seguido hablabamos de nuestros planes, miedos, pero sobre todo de toda nuestra felicidad. El miercoles sabia que algo no estaba bien. Fui el doctor y me mando a tomar el primer sonograma. Estaba emocionada por que por fin iba a ver a mi bebe. Me hicieron el sonograma y no escuchaba nada, todo era silencio. La persona que me hizo el sonograma me dijo que iba a llamar al doctor para que viniera. El doctor busco y busco y por fin me dijo que no escuchaba y no podia ver el movimiento del corazon. No lo podia creer, el mundo se detubo y yo me empapaba de dolor. Trate de ser fuerte todo el dia, pero nadamas llegue a la casa y me derrumbe. Llore y el cielo lloro conmigo, comenzo a llover. Miguel y yo estamos mejor.... vamos a sobre salir. Nos amamos y amamos a nuestro bebe. Sabemos que cuando nos toque irnos al otro mundo alguien va a estar ahi para recibirnos. Ahora lo unico que podemos hace es disfrutar el presente por que es lo unico que tenemos. Las fotos de arriba son las unicas fotos que me tome sola al estar embarazada, las tome antes de la operacion. Guardare esas imagenes en mi corazon por siempre.
